Steal away with me
Back to when
Love was fresh and new
When greens were green
And blues were blue
When fragrance filled the air
Like a heavy morning dew
Back to when
You loved me
And I loved you
Back in the days of
Remember when
We laid in bed
And skin met skin
With hearts at peace
Engrossed in Zen
I remember when
Before you walked away
And hurt walked in
Simona A. Brinson
Why is it that we try to fill ourselves from empty jars? Sure, he’s a beautiful vessel–Tall, dark, handsome, and smooth. But his vessel is empty, devoid of the capacity to give, to nourish, to replenish. So empty, in fact, that he can’t even accept what you’re pouring into him. You can pour and pour and pour, but he will never have the capacity to reciprocate. Why? Because there can be no reciprocity when you’re pouring into a sieve. So why keep pouring?
I hadn’t written a poem since December 22, 2019. Then on December 23rd I decided it was time to work my creative muscle. Within minutes of finishing that poem, I had written another one, which was completed on December 4th at 12:15am. I decided right then and there to challenge myself to write a poem a day for the next 365 days. I am up for the challenge!
I remember about 15 years ago my cousin asked me that very question. I began with: I am a mother, a wife… She stopped me immediately. She told me that those were a list of titles, not who I am. I was perplexed and though I tried, I had a hard time grasping the concept.
Fast forward 9 years – I was asked to write a bio introducing myself in a company “Getting To Know You” section of the newsletter. I looked at other employee bios that had been spotlighted. They were the standard:
Hello! My name is Suzy Qu. I am from Nowhere, FL. I have been working at XYZ as a counselor for 15 years. I have 3 beautiful children and have been married to the love of my life for 22 years. My interests are swimming, cake decorating, gardening and dancing.
They were all so cookie-cutter-blah. Some of them read like personal ads. I had such a hard time being cookie cutter. For three days I tried but the words that came just seemed inauthentic. Then one night, I recalled my cousin’s question: Who are you? At this time in my life, I knew the answer to this question. I spent the next hour writing my bio and submitted it the next morning. By mid-afternoon, I received a reply stating that it was too long. Now mind you, they provided me no parameters to begin with. I was asked to shorten it. Well, it couldn’t be shortened, at least from my perspective because I had introduced myself in the most authentic way possible.
I was not willing to bend to the status quo. I wasn’t willing to stand in line with all of the other lost identities to gain acceptance. I am not my circumstances. I am not what I do for a living. I am a not a list of titles given to me by society or via another’s perceptions of who I am. Needless to say, I was not featured in the newsletter. I was perfectly fine with that.
So, who am I?
Who are you?
If you have never thought about it, I encourage you to step out of your comfort zone do so. Try to loosen your hold on some of your false identities. Open yourself up to the possibility of the beauty of your complexity. There is freedom in knowing who you truly are.
I would love to hear about what you discover, please share your thoughts!